Crypts, sorry I just saw this. Worked 7.8 hours yesterday at a Rock Festival plus lots of stuff going on with my family. I am sorry that you aren't getting all of the support you need. You might want to consider going back to therapy. Think of therapy as a treatment for this chronic and terrible PTSD that is NOT your fault. Just like other serious chronic illnesses, it flairs up then retreats. You might suffer less if you seek help when it rears its ugly head.

I am sorry your dad did that to you and that you have been That you were still so young makes it all the more painful though it would hurt no matter what your age. Has your dad even acknowledged how badly he screwed up? I think if he hasn't, this makes also it makes it harder to heal.

I agree with Amyjay, you probably saw, read, or are dealing with something (severe stress?) that has triggered your PTSD. Serious things happened to you that were not your fault including your father really, seriously damaging you with his rage. I am sorry. Hugs.