It is very difficult to maintain romantic relationships. I tend to fall for people who are in relationships because I don't have to fully commit. So I always have an excuse to leave. Usually my heart gets broken. It is good to know we can love. The other problem in relationships in general is some of my friends know me one way and other friends know me to be another way. When I was younger I would keep these worlds apart. Now I just avoid all my friends which is not working for me. It's just less anxiety not dealing with people even if we have been friends for over 30 years. And none of them know I am DID. It is exhausting.