I am a b****
I don't deserve friends
I hurt people
I am trash
I am no good
I am nothing
I don't know how to think/talk properly.
Others know how I feel better than me.
I can't make my own decisions - that's not allowed.
It's wrong for me to try to talk.
I should not be saying all this - nor any other problem of mine.
I deserve all the evil that has happened to me - bc I am evil.

I don't deserve to be alive.