Trigger icon placed for *mention* of SI

I haven't really mentioned it here on the boards, but I have been attending a support group for women with borderline personality disorder. The group is just getting started so it is very small. It is just me, and three other women, one of them being the facilitator (who was diagnosed when she was a teenager). T is really glad that I have joined this group and he encourages the support that I can gain. The facilitator of the group has offered her support numerous times to me in order to help me deal with my SI. She asked me if I would like to meet her for coffee this Saturday, knowing that this is normally my appointment time with T (he's away this week) and I would need the extra support at that time. However, I do not know if I can do this. I mean, T and I discussed that it is okay to get help from others and that does not mean that I am going to lose him. I am really scared about discussing my SI because everytime I do I end up not really staying in the present and it becomes a scary place for me. This woman is aware of that (she even gently taps my arm in group when she sees me 'drifting'). I don't know if I'm even ready to take this step for the extra support to control my cutting. I can't seem to do anything that will possibly lead towards me letting it go. I still haven't answered her about Saturday and I know I have to email her back... I'm just not sure....