I completely understand what you mean, DechanDawa!!!!! It must certainly be a shock for you to discover the "true nature" of someone you've been knowing for so long! Please don't blame yourself because of it! Some narcissists can be VERY good at hiding their nature! It's not your fault! I'm really happy that you're acknowledging her behavior, though, and I do believe that you already know what to do next! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Just cut her out of your life if you can! You deserve MUCH, MUCH better friends and you deserve to be around people that will truly care about you! Please do that if you can, for your own care and health! I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this! We'll always be here for you, of course, and we'll ALWAYS stick around for you! I PROMISE YOU THAT!!!!! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE!!!!! My ears and my inbox are always open for you, my friend! Just PM me if you need it, ok? I'm REALLY SO HAPPY that you're back!!!!! Sending many hugs to you, DechanDawa!!!!!