Paranoia of him has been one of the symptoms of my mental illness. My life was not on the right track compared to my peers and I blamed it on my husband. This was one of the biggest symptoms of my illness. That he stayed with me after everything I put him through proves I picked the right person. When I need his strength and trust him he always responds.

I have finally gotten serious about taking my medications. My mental illness prevented me from seeing what I needed to do. I am not perfectly stable but I am stable enough to have better insight into what went wrong and what I still need to do. There is still so much to do. I spend less time reading posts and responding because of this but still check in periodically. When you have been unrealistic about life for years and years, it does not magically happen overnight. I hope I can continue to get better and be a better wife and mother than I have been. I think I have gone from baby steps to regular steps.