I feel like I’m about to ruin everything and my T will terminate me because I’m too messed up for treatment.

Probably unreasonable but can’t shake the feeling off. I’m too much for people and it’s only a matter of time before they realise they need to back away from me. It’s always been like this.
I don’t deserve all this help, there are people whose problems are much worse than mine and who are dealing a lot better. I feel so ashamed.