well, I did sleep some last night. not the deep, deep sleep I was anticipating but it's a start. I took the zolpidem at around 10:30 and was in bed at 11 pm after I showered and the meds kicked in right away. I noticed that I was dreaming plenty and my Spotify playlist was repeating. I got out of bed only once to use the bathroom. also, my wife noticed that I didn't kick in my sleep which I do when agitated and manic.

this morning, my mania is definitely waning. my mood is absolutely more stable and there is no anxiety to speak of. this will be my first full day on my new meds regimen. hope this combo helps me in the long run. I want to actually enjoy this summer with my family. we plan to take road trips and I want these mixed episodes and hypomania to be in the rear view. that's about it, just wanted to update this morning. hope everyone is well!