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Originally Posted by Ellie_jo
This past year has been the most stable I've been in my life. And let me tell you it is so BORING. I found some journal entries from before I was on the right meds and I can't even remember what it was like to feel everything that intensely. It's that time of the year when the sun comes out and drives me up higher and tricks me into thinking it's a great idea to stop all my meds and ride out that rollercoaster. I see a new pdoc next Monday. I don't know yet how much to tell her. Right now I have enough sanity left to know it's probably a good idea to be upfront but that itch just needs scratching. Ya dig?
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oh yeah, I dig. I get like that around the spring and summertime. just want to let loose and really start to feel and live. it isn't uncommon to want to get that feeling back after feeling so "normal" for a long time. In the past I've stopped taking my meds around the holidays and the summer. bad idea. I paid for it. I just went thru a mixed state episode with bad mood swings, and boy, did I "feel" that though lol. but, yeah, be totally honest with your pdoc and get your feelings across.
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Diagnosed 2008
Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression:
Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote.