I understand the allure of mania, but after years of major problems with it, I'm happy to kick that mental state out the door. Of course some mild little bit of hypomania is still nice, but there's a world of difference between mild hypomania and full blown mania with psychosis. As I aged, it also more often turned mixed, as well, which is hell.
I don't consider my life to be boring. I know how to have a good time while stable. Plus, fun while stable has significantly fewer (or no) negative ramifications.
I suggest you try to practice and seek fun during stability. Fun is made, not served to people on a silver platter.
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