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Originally Posted by Merope
I feel like I’m about to ruin everything and my T will terminate me because I’m too messed up for treatment.
Probably unreasonable but can’t shake the feeling off. I’m too much for people and it’s only a matter of time before they realise they need to back away from me. It’s always been like this.
I don’t deserve all this help, there are people whose problems are much worse than mine and who are dealing a lot better. I feel so ashamed.
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I think all the responses you've gotten here are really wise and meaningful, but I just wanted to add that this seems like it's a feeling, you know feelings are not facts, and "about to ruin" is not a thing unless you are planning on lighting your T's office door on fire or chucking a dead rat through her window or threatening to kick her @ss. You can't ruin a T relationship by struggling with what you're struggling with, and I'd also encourage you to talk to her directly, on the phone asap, if you can.
It sounds like, as they say, depression talking.