narcissistic behaviors and narcissistic personality disorder plague majority of my support system. not only do they see no other way but their own, they are unwilling to see different ways of achieving what they want. I'm not a complete narc, (although I do see the need to maintain a healthy level of narcissistic qualities), but my need to have control over myself reaches far beyond my need to control others. and, my most fear breaking truth is, if it is meant to be, it will be. there are some fates that can not be altered or achieved despite what is thrown to wolves. one of my least favorite personality traits is a manipulator; someone who needs to control to feel in control is such a waste of positive leadership. and, at times, this kind of behavior is too trying for me to feel like myself, and so now I have learned that removing yourself from the narcissistic hold is the only way deal with narcissism.
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