Thanks, DD, for sharing your wisdom. I did therapy for many years, in three different states. I suppose it helped me feel a little less alone, but not really. They were good people, the therapists I saw. I can't say I got any important insights from therapy. I've gotten insights from life. Reading AL-ANON literature helped me a great deal, though it took years to sink in. I just have ended up kind of isolated. When I'm freer to do what I want there are connections I can get back, but then I won't have him. We are very close.

I'm sorry for how alone he must feel at times . . . unable to move by himself . . . and having a hard time finding his words. He'll look at me with a thought in his eyes, but sometimes he can't come up with the words. He never feels sorry for himself. He's brave about a lot of things. I complain a lot. But the warmth between us over the years is the best thing I've ever had in my life.

I'm flodded with tears now, that I can't let him see. I'll miss him so bad when I am alone.