I'm grateful that I calmed down and fulfilled my responsibilities to other people and to myself yesterday.
Life pressures "make" me dissociative, and that's not a happy way to be!
I'm still not as calm as I would like to be, but being responsible helps my background anxiety.
For the first time in a couple of years I remember my mother being loving towards her brother, her parents, and me: that made me feel like I inherited something good in me, as well as the horrible bad experiences.
Thank you mum for being close right now when I need to remember that not everything is about exploitation, money or people's egos! (she died when I was 8 years old)