Hi Christina, I had thought you'd been med free for years, my bad. Blame my meds, lol. I can so understand wanting to detox your body. After years and years of taking meds, who knows what is stored in our bodies, and what they actually need. A fresh start is an excellent place to start.
Please like everyone else has said, what's taken years to get used to, your body isn't going to get used to not having in days or weeks. There's no rush. If it takes a month or 6 months, getting to your goal and heading in that direction until then is your aim. Do it too quick it might be one step forward, two back. I'm glad you've got someone to give you feedback and support.
I'd love to be med free. Because Id be the real me. I'm not sure who that is though. I know who I think it is, who id like it to be, but if it's not, then I'm not sure I'd be ok with that.
You've only got one go at life. If your not happy, then take charge. No Pdoc or T lives in your body.
I wish you all the best. I'm on 450mg. Numb for me is safe.