I recently read a story of a woman who was denied entrance to Disney Land in Florida because she had CBD oil in her purse; (it’s illegal there) she had severe arthritis. I don’t know much about that form of remedy.
I have found Turmeric works for inflammation and also helps with clarity in thoughts. Another herb I use is Boswellia it helps with inflammation (which is a cause of pain).

As for the hospital in patient means your in a sense locked in with close supervision. Semi-hospital patient your able to return home after a day program which has therapeutic setting. (That’s provided one’s not suicidal) if your serious about acting that out you’ll be admitted to the lock up.

Often, when one is a new patient an assessment is done to help pin point what the clients needs are. It’s a broad spectrum so they do ask about one’s needs beyond the psychological concerns. Of course there are many who go in strictly for the psychological concerns ie bipolar, schizophrenia etc. these patients are often repeaters (often going in). I think your case is different and if their good at assessing they will see your needs.

You asked for advice here’s mine go get the medical help you need. I believe you’ll see there’s another way besides death, pain, despair. [emoji254]