I went out on a limb and listen to my pdoc and took the 15mg of zyprexa and two Remeron tablets (forget the dose). I'm angry as hell today and I want to smash my head on something. I'm having suicidal thoughts too. No plans (yet). This disorder sucks. The treatment sucks.

Edit: and you know what else sucks? No one wants to help me. My actual pdoc's office just called and pushed my appointment out a week. Not like I needed to, because apparently everyone and their brother thinks I'm psychotic. Nope. I can totally go an extra week...