My pdoc at an IOP I go to gives me the sedating meds because he likes knocking me out to the point where it's okay to do brain surgery on me while I'm sleeping. He put a microchip in my head and manipulates it whenever I'm asleep. I can hear radio signals from the chip and sometimes even make out words. It's a thought control thing that hasn't worked so he's going to eventually swap my meds out with cyanide tablets that look exactly like my Zyprexa. I took the zyprexa yesterday and didn't die so he didn't do it yet, but I'm ready for, or rather expecting, either total thought control or death. There are probably other microchips in my meds so I'm not taking them whenever I can so I can avoid the extra signals, they hurt my teeth.
I never consented to being part of such an experiment and thinking about it pisses me off greatly, and I'm thinking about it almost all day. I listen to music at the highest possible volume to counteract the radio signals along with my "invisible roommates."
The pdoc never admitted to, and I have a feeling if I bring it up that I know it was him he would deny. I have told him I know there's a microchip in my head and he keeps trying to convince me it's psychosis. I guess there's a slight possibility, but I doubt it. It feels too real to not be.
Thoughts?