here is something that might interest you...

the new ICD 11 has made some changes where ....

the personality disorders have all been combined into one label called Personality Disorder.

and they have instead of dividing it by personality disorder names they did it in severities...

Mild, moderate and severe, also Personality Disorder severity unspecified, and the last two are prominent personality traits or patterns and Secondary Personality change.

with in these are now dissociation problems.

for example mild personality disorder has in it borderline patterns, detachment problems, dissociation problems, disinhibition problems (impulsive, risk taking and other things) Anankastia (a type of borderline - ocd combination problems)

maybe it would be good to talk with your treatment providers about this and they may be able to re assess your diagnosis and update it according to the ICD 11 instead of the DSM 5 which keeps all these things separate.

this may just answer all these questions that you are having right now about how things are in you and why you are having so much problems.

here is a link where you can read about the personality disorders and how they have added some things to them and changed it by keeping the disorder borderline but labeling it and adding things like dissociation, detachment to it.

the link is to the ICD 11 main page. ICD-11

click on browser and a page will open up where you can type in personalty disorder and a list of personality disorders will come up then click on the ones you want to read about and show your treatment provider