Bluebicycle this sounds scary to experience, I agree that it sounds like a delusion, though. I know it's hard to believe it could be a delusion when it feels so certain. As others suggested maybe it would help to look back at your past posts to see the pattern. I was happy to see you were feeling better recently and hope you feel better again soon. Is there anyone else in your life you trust right now to talk to? I am glad you are posting here for support.