Mixed is hell. I’ve had 2 mixed episodes. One of them went on for months. At its mildest, I would describe it as emotional indigestion. I never imagined how many emotional states can coexist simultaneously in one persons mind. Extremely uncomfortable. At its worst, I wanted to run screaming across my house and through my living room window to make it stop. I settled for banging my head against the floor to make the thoughts stop. Thankfully medication pulled me out of it before I needed to be hospitalized but it was a near thing. I got lucky and meds worked fast.
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