I didn't even began to learn about my self worth until I got out on my own and away from my parent's house which was when I was 20. I had to live with roommates because I didn't make much money but it was much better that being around my abusive mother. What is your situation now? It's a big world out there which can be scary but there are people who are kind and supportive. Have you tried counseling? If not it may be a good place to start. For myself counseling along with psych meds makes my life manageable. But sometimes just being around nurturing people is enough. I also attend a support group for people with mental illness which is free. I have been mentally ill since I was 13. The support group is called NAMI and I believe they have chapters all across the U.S. I'm so glad you reached out and posted! And all my best to you!