I absolutely trust my doctors and my pharmacist as well. I know that they want to help me and would never do anything to harm me. I would agree with what others have said about switching pharmacies or to tablet medication. Do whatever makes you feel comfortable but don't stop taking your medication, that could be dangerous! Also I don't know about laws where you live but the only way my therapist can talk to my doctors is because I signed a consent form. You can ask your therapist about this if that is what is keeping you from being totally open with them. I hope you can talk to a trusted person in your life about how you've been feeling and these thoughts you're having. Stay safe.