It's a thought that has stayed with me most of my life. I've been through all the bipolar meds and have recently restarted one I had a prior problem with. I would see it as ending their pain, stopping them from having to deal with my stuff that I really cannot gain self-control of. There isn't a fix for the physical pain, just temporary options. I haven't been able to cry for days but I'm also feeling some of the lowest I've felt ever. When a person with terminal illness dies, people say they aren't in pain any more. That sounds so freeing.