Poorguy thank you for so great quotes. I used to have a self defense system that made me pick my self up against any negative belief and it was automatic. But somewhere along my life I lost my self defense system, and need to work at it to build my self stronger. And so far it has not been easy at all. I am still struggling as a divorcee father who cannot see his kids and in my 40s who still loves his ex wife. Plus living in Tokyo for 20 years it’s been difficult as I am ultimately alone. But like you said everything is about trying. Wish I could have you guys here and give a real hug.