I’ve never been awful with communication and my therapist thinks this is something my father instilled in me. When I am upset I never tell anyone what they did to upset me, every time I don’t stand up for myself my heart hurts. I don’t know why I can’t, I feel so guilty when I do, like nobody cares or I shouldn’t be feeling what I’m feeling. My boyfriend is amazing, but the one before him would always flip things on me and make them my fault. I don’t understand why I can’t tell my current boyfriend when he does something that bothers me, he’s supportive and loving and no matter how much I know he’d listen and be willing to do things a little differently for me I can’t seem to bring myself to tell him. It can be something so small, and sometimes my frustration builds up because I haven’t said anything and I snap at random moments. I know it’s not fair to him at all, he’s so supportive and loving and I can’t even tell him that o have a hard time expressing myself.