I´m glad posting helps. I hope you can work towards being able to express your feelings more. Everyone deserves to be heard.

My husband was not raised by his biological family, but by his godmother who was given legal guardianship. He started therapy recently and they've been talking about his wories about loss/abandonment in part due to his situation groing up. I imagine it is quite common for people who were adopted. I'm glad you have gone to counseling for it.