I have nothing left, really. Things I was passionate about don't matter, even to me. I'm tired, so very very tired. I haven't got the energy to find something new or anyone new or the energy to want either. I'm really over trying. I'm over hurting. The only reason I haven't is because I don't want to hurt my kids. But, they are adults and know how I am and that I'm not well. It hurts them when they have to deal with me.