I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so unwell. I've enjoyed reading along with your recent successes. You attended five out of six of your lecture series and you had your doubts about that. You attended your reunion and you had your doubts about that. So it seemed like you were doing well. Is it the struggle with your dad that's triggered you? I hope you get some relief from the Seroquel. The street name for it is "Snooze Berries" so it's known for it's sedating effects. I know weekends are a hard time. Don't forget about crisis lines if it comes to that. Hang in there, your friend, Jane.