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May 11, 2019, 05:30 AM
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Member Since: May 2018
Location: Earth weekdays, Pluto on weekends
Posts: 318
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I got so angry! I just have to be in my own personal territory. The only place that is 100% mine is my car. That's where I'm sleeping tonight.
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Our world grows as we revive from depressions grips, and it shrinks as depression hits. Its good you know when to pull back. Very wise. My anger flares with yelling, screaming, crying...out of sheer frustration and hatred,especially when I cannot seem to control any area of my life. No matter how hard I try. My car is my 'safe place'. Its always got a sleeping bag in it. A place where I can lock myself in, see all around me (unlike a house), sleep and can drive off if need be. Its wise to retreat until you feel safe.
It pains me to hear you experience such intense feelings. Our minds can be such cruel task masters. As hard as it is, what you're going through now, it's hunker down time and let the cyclone pass using the safest ways you know how. If that's in the car sleeping with the seroquel and talking online, then that's what you do. Shrink your world as much as you need to, but don't be afraid to reach out, be it online, via helplines, or getting to ED. Please don't drive whilst on the high dose of seroquel. Get someone to take you. But I promise you, you are strong. I might not know you, but your here, talking, sharing, and trying to process safely. You're ffighting. I think you deserve a lot of praise for that. Your feeling the pain....and we're here cheering you on to keep fighting.
Do you have your next step strategies written down? Use them, no matter how fruitless they may feel. Sometimes one sentence is exactly what we need to hear to ground us. Help is close. Allow yourself to stop, breathe and hopefully sleep. Can do.
Last edited by Underdevelopment; May 11, 2019 at 05:45 AM.
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