I used to post in this forum but stopped about 6 months ago. I've kept up with most of the posts. The reason I stopped posting was because I quit T cold turkey without really discussing with my T so felt weird about posting in the psychotherapy forum even though I loved you guys. I think I always hoped I'd go back to therapy and secretly wished my T would convince me to (though I knew she wasn't going to do that).

Anyway, I think I'd like to go back to T, but it's REALLY hard for me to pick up the phone and make that call. I have anxiety about talking on the phone. That phone anxiety combined with the huge anxiety about calling her up to see if I can come back has kept me from doing it for so long. I'm going to try to do it though, and thought it might help me if I posted this message here for all to see.....

I have all these things playing in my mind...what if she doesn't want me to come back? What if she thinks its a bad idea? What if I go back and don't like it? How do I fit this back in my job schedule and budget again? All these things have been great excuses for the past 6 months.