Dear T,
Struggling right now, not entirely sure why. Don't know if it's about listening to the band I associate with ex-MC, buying a Mother's Day card for my mom, something else, or a mix. Part of me wants to reach out to you, but I'm sure you wouldn't see it tonight, so will just see how I feel in the morning. Assuming I'm mostly OK then, would just wait till session Monday. Maybe I'll type up what I want to send you (and not send it), then we could discuss it in session? Also trying to just sit with the sadness. Maybe I just need to grieve? Like what I didn't have in childhood? And what I thought at one point I was getting from ex-MC? (In retrospect, I feel that was more maternal than paternal.) In the meantime, I'll try to just hold on to the feeling of your caring.
Love,
LT