Nah - I know what it is .. and honestly I have no way around it at this point other than to leave .. which I will not do (for reasons of my own that sound silly to others) .. and yes, I realize what I am saying - it just really pisses me off bc this is something that DID NOT have to happen .. yet it did .. and now its too late bc he does not care that it did, and would be happy to spend the rest of his life in his bedroom so long as he could be away from me in the moments he is not spending money.