I tried to tell her, but it is something I struggle with. I told her that (I just didn't post a word for word report of my session). I am willing to try and to push myself but I help. That's why I am going to therapy. If I had all the answers I wouldn't need to go.

I cannot do anything to earn more money. I work full time, I simply do not have the time or energy to take on another job. just getting through the day as it is is exhausting enough for me.

I am ready to do what I need to do, but as I have said, I can't do it on my own which is why I am looking into therapy. I know that this is my fault, but I am doing everything I can. I have tried SO hard over the last few years but clearly that isn't good enough