Lemon, it is good to see you back. I have missed you.

It sounds like you need encouragement. Go for it! Give therapy another try! Sometimes we are not in a place for it and sometimes we are. Sounds like you are back to being ready for therapy.

I have phone anxiety too. Would it help you to write out a little script and rehearse the call? Then you won't get tongue tied. I especially hate when I get an answering machine and end up saying inane things with awkward pauses.

I hope your T will want to see you again. How did you end your therapy with her? Did you just not go back one day? (That is what I did with my previous T. I gave no explanation or anything, I just canceled an appointment and never called back to reschedule.) If your T isn't able to see you again, then hopefully she could provide some referrals. Are you at all considering a different therapist, or did you really like her and definitely want to resume?

If you do go back and don't like it, you can always stop going. Or switch to a different therapist. Remember, you are the customer!

No more excuses. Go for it!