Yeah, I do still sometimes meet old classmates and old friends from back when I was a teenager and I can act more reserved and careful even among some of them, but I feel more at ease with them because they at least have known me when I was my much more outgoing self, so they are aware of that side of me.
It's a lot more frustrating when I meet new people, like new classmates for example, and they never get to know that side of me and probably kinda start thinking that my careful personality is what I have mostly been like, which is not true at all.
And this false view of me has started to really annoy me hardcore lately, so that I actually get this "fighter attitude" where I make damn sure to stop acting that way.
That attitude is so powerful that it even surpasses this careful style that I have got used to throughout this last decade.

One major difference that says a lot is the fact that when I was a teenager I could easily make eye contact with girls and flirt with them without making a big deal out of it, whereas these last several years this has felt a lot more "serious" - it just hasn't had the same playful vibe to it, so I have acted a lot more serious about that as well.
But even this has started to come back to me, just because I have had this extreme desire to get it back.

It's a pretty funny situation - I am not just thinking like "well, it would be nice to practise this now", it's more like "okay that's it, I have had enough of this".

It feels almost like some sort of spiritual awakening or something;
I have even started to feel a great desire to go to parties at my university, which is funny since I have shied away from that more and more for a long time.