You know, sweetheart, I'll share with you that I do that a lot of the time too. There's a voice that never leaves me, that tells me all kinds of awful things about myself. I can't do this, I can't do that, I'm no good, etc. And over many years, with advice from spiritual teachers that I trust, I've realized that it often gets worse if you fight with those voices. They say it often works better if you just let them bleat on in the background and don't actively engage them, while you quietly go about doing what you know you need to do for yourself, in your life as it is right now. Taking it a couple of minutes at a time. If you are alone in the evening, is there something you can do to comfort yourself? Distract yourself? Calm yourself? Until you can go to bed and go to sleep? Write about how you feel? Write a poem?