...make a suicide pact with him. He even went into great discussion about which season he preferred to die in. Asked me whether I would prefer to die in the winter or the summer. Who would shoot who first, etc.

Now, mind you, he knows I have been hospitalized in the past for suicidal ideation and/or attempts.

To say he hasn't been the father I've always wished for would be an understatement, but jeeeeezzzz....

I'm totally messed up by this. Why does he want to take me with him?

Okie