I am really having a hard time with a decision I made and I thought I would come here and get some wll needed advice / guidance.

As some on here know I have been helping out my niece who is a single mother of three for the last two years (kids ages: 6, 3, 2) - and while I watched her kids for free the first year I did requested some pay this last year to help cover my own expenses ($300 a month) - but now the time has come that I had to tell her that I would NOT be able to watch the kids starting next year as my health problems do not always allow me to be able to go go go for ten hours a day while I have the kids and I am looking into getting a part time job as my husband and I are thinking about moving and getting a new car, therefore, our finances need to be raised beyond that of what my niece can pay per month.....

Now this is where I am having a hard time with the decision I made "of not watching the kids any more" after this school year ends...... as: Mom could barley afford to pay me the little amount I got for watching three kids four days a week at ten hours a day (and) IF she cannot afford another babysitter or day care after I quit then she is looking into having their dead beat dad watch them as he is out of work (once again) and she has no one else that can help her like I did...... I hate the thought of their dad being apart of their every day life (so does mom) as he is far from what you would want of the person that is supposed to be guiding you child while the parent is at work.

What am I to do..................... I feel so (lost, guilty, numb, and rotten) - Life is Hard.