As far as your question about the meds pushing you into a manic phase: that is very possible if you have some form of bipolar and take an antidepressent. In that case you can be treated just like anyone who's bipolar, with a mood stabalizer. A book I'm reading is pretty good as far as talking about other types of bipolar other than the classic bipolar type I. It is called "Why Am I Still Depressed?"