Yeah I’m just getting really old and haven’t any success in keeping people in my life - haven’t really tried much either (my fault....). I dealt with drugs and then social anxiety - it’s been a long road with not much progress. People jump on me for lack of effort - guess they’re right but it doesn’t alleviate the situation... anyway I’ve been living in regretville recently.... it’s really horrible and always paralyzes me... can’t really get things going when I’m drowning in the past...... well okay then and thanks....oh yeah I know aloneness is not good for your health..... oh well