I should have been dead so many times I sometimes wonder if I am dead. I know that sounds weird but what if you never really die spirit wise and things continue for you the way they are. I have heard this mentioned else where and I have tjought it a possibility. a unlikely one but still one. I was then reminded of it when someone said they saw their mother's ghost watering the plants in the morning in her yard just like she had always done. There are so many things that could happen after we die. I am Christian so I am supposed to believe in heaven and hell but I just dont know and thinking about makes me anxious.