Same. The medical model told me that it was a chemical imbalance. I will need to be on medication for the rest of my life. At one of my hospital stays, while I'm sure she meant well, the doctor told me that I just have to learn to fight for life and accept that life would include being in the hospital. I would have an illness that would need to be medicated for the rest of my life...but hey...plenty of people go on to live productive lives. And I'm just like...really? My life seems utterly pointless. I can't even work!!!

Thank you for the suggestions. I have a great book by Dr. Caroline Leaf with which I want to start working. Conversations like this also really give me hope and help me to shift my thinking. I'm a work in progress, but I'm learning!