Hey couchies, looking for pocket riders tomorrow to see T. I am in a lot of pain physically and emotionally but don’t typically get Sui or SH so I am having trouble having my pain taken seriously by anyone other than T... which is making me insanely dependent on T and uncomfortable. I know I am going to have to ask for what I want tomorrow and I’m not ready to. I have my intake with old Pdoc Friday so I have that to fall back on if things don’t go well tomorrow... but I need them to go well tomorrow. I need T’s office to smell right (I may bring the essential oil myself in case he is still out of it) and I need him close and willing to hold my hand... even if we don’t do anything else all session.
H caught me with a death grip on the weighted lap pad that I made that matches T’s office because my son scared me... now H is all pissy.
I just want T.