They say im really high functioning.

Im kind of homeless atm and struggling to maintain all my contact and appointments

I cant seem to get understanding because i cant seem to get across what is happening to me...

I feel more aware when i sit here and try to share, when i dont feel pressured, when i can take my time to think and type...
My appointments havnt been productive for a while because of this.. or atleast how i feel?

I tell myself i am really stressed and thats why im struggling more... bad internal signals and connections because of so much stress
but this way of "being strong" is going to get me killed, i am trying .. but if i push too much i know ill lose control and end up in the hospital but it seems i just cant get it together 😞


The only diagnosis i have is ptsd, adhd, somatization disorder ... im still trying to figure out things, im just really tired..