OK...So I wrote a little description of what things are like for me, and I'm planning on giving it to T on Tuesday (we'll see if that happens or not). Here it is:

On the outside, I seem fine. I wish that were the case. In reality, I feel as if I'm falling apart. Instead of being happy, awake, confident...I'm always tired, almost always on the edge of crying. I feel lazy, stupid, and ugly. I only half care though. With my friends and family, I either completely withdraw or act totally fake. Being like this...It's hard. I feel terrible, and would rather curl up in a ball and cry than do much else...But I can't. I have to keep going and do things and not let people know that there's anything wrong. They ask too many questions then. My efforts are pretty futile though. I don't get things done like I should, and people do realize that there's something wrong. I don't even know why I even bother trying.

Yeah. Probably not too eloquent, and not as descriptive as I had hoped...But it's what came to me. You know, the best, real information that I had at the moment. But, I do think that it'll give T an idea of what's going on, and [hopefully] spark some discussion in the right direction.

What do you think?