I feel nervous too. The last several sessions have been difficult. It seems she is starting to play hardball with me. I guess I am due as I can honestly say our sessions for the last six months have really been little more than chit chatting. I suppose she is encouraging real work to be done - and it is hard. Not just the sessions are hard but the homework I must do - and I am not doing so I just know I am going to disappoint her and that makes me feel worse than I did to begin with. I realise headway has got to be made but I am either lazy or just don't feel ready for it. I am stuck. And I worry about her reaction.

Hope, I think a lot of us struggle with the sense we are not being heard. I think some of the time they truly aren't listening but I have wondered too if it is the system. Many benefit packages operate on a structured recommended plan of action. They may only allow so many hours worth of therapy. I have thought that this might be a case of why some therapist's appear to be sterner and more aggressive. They have to manage as much success and recovery in a client as they can in that limited period of time. Oh how fortunate it must be to retain a therapist for an indefinite time frame. In my own case, my therapy is paid for by Veterans' affairs (Canada). Recently, things changed regarding funding of this and various other plans. My therapist had to draw up a recovery plan and submit it back to my case manager. She is working under a thumb then and I recognise she is struggling as things are not moving along according to the plan. Hence, there are times I raise a secondary issue I'd like to talk about only for very little time being spent discussing it as she wants to refocus on the deeper problem. Frankly I am growing tired of this. Things I want to talk about matter regardless of the priority. I am non confrontational though. I am not able to raise my own voice regarding what I think ought to be the agenda.