Hello there and welcome
I am going to echo everyone's comments here too. Sometimes when we are recovering - those changes we are making with ourselves scare us. We get too comfortable with the feelings or we don't know what "normal" is.
I want to add that you are doing great - you should be proud of yourself. Reaching out to others is a wonderful step you are making and there is a great bunch here to help you.
Take care and keep posting to us....we care.

Heather