I don't recall including a poll asking about my body odour. Maybe I should. It seems to be the only issue people give a &^&% about and not if the shower physically hurts or stresses me out.

I've been up and crying for much of the night, not that it matters, and I've stripped myself down already so we can get this stupid thing over with. If I could do it myself safely, I'd be in there right now, just so someone else wouldn't have to do it to me.

For the record, just having the socks stripped from my feet hurts, having my feet moved hurts and my hips hurt. And if I get cold in the shower (which usually happens) it's ten times worse.

My feet hurt worse than my hips when my feet are rubbed or even brushed lightly. They hurt so bad that I don't have more than two pairs of socks to my name, so rarely can I bear having my socks removed.

I'm better off having no human contact because it means no snide comments from people who don't understand. I'm sorry that means church. The pain from my hips has ruined my social life anyway.

I'm hurting now. I'll feel better when I'm away from everyone and everything.