I've found out that I am being less and less interested in my work. It's still vacations and so I have not enrolled to the second year of my BSc course yet, but man, even science is starting to tire me. I don't know what's happening.

As an example, I went to Amazon and searched for a foundational book on astrophysics. I found one suitable for my needs. I thought it was pretty nice and all as I read the reviews and read the table of contents. But as I actually read the content paragraphs of a photograph of a random page of the book, I started to feel less and less interested. I eventually thought, "Meh, it's not worth it."

Then, as I've already have Feynman's first volume of his Lectures series, I went to the Amazon page of the second volume. And then as I read it's about matter and electromagnetism, I started to feel bored again. I have had known the book is on electromagnetism ever since I first looked up the books on Amazon. I never thought it's very interesting but I thought my atomic physics knowledge would benefit anyway and I'd get a better picture of the quantum theory (I plan to get a PhD in the quantum theory) and so my interest never actually flatlined. Up until now, or at least I've noticed this today.

It's not that I am bored of his third volume, in fact the book excites me (it's on quantum mechanics.) But I am not so sure it'll be the case once I get my hands on the book. The first volume still entertains me (about to finish the tenth chapter, of 55 in total) but I have no idea how or why.

Note - Science is sometimes the only thing that can entertain me, and it's mostly the only thing that can keep me occupied and give me pleasure. If I am starting to lose interest in it, I think it's a grave sign of something.

I would have posted this on a science forum, but since the folks there are not psychologists, psychiatrists or someone who have probably had a first-hand experience with mental illness and would like to share it, I am posting it here on PsychCentral.

I just visited my psychiatrist three days ago and he increased my dose for risperidone. I can't go till the next month for personal reasons.

Any idea what I should be doing right now?